Yung simpleng ‘i love you’ lang niya sumaya ka ulit.
Do everything to make him fall in love with you again.
Ngayon lang nagkaoras buksan ang mga kung dapat buksan. Ilang araw na din akong hindi nagbukas ng pc dahil kailangan magaral. Haaay. Buhay estudyante nga naman. Nakakapagod magisip. Pagod na nga utak ko e.
Sa tropa namin may sobrang nasasaktan, may mas nasasaktan, may nasasaktan, may takot na masaktan, may masaya, may tahimik, may hindi makamove on.
To the girl who left me on our 3rd anniversary.
You’re so unfair. The last time I saw you, you were full of life, you were smiling, you were laughing. Now, you’re nothing but just a memory. You left me alone. You didn’t even bother to say goodbye. Just like that, you were gone, permanently. It was devastating. You wanna know why I didn’t go to your funeral? It’s because I don’t wanna see you lying there, on your coffin, lifeless and cold. I don’t wanna cry in front of you because I get used to the fact that every time I cry, you’ll instantly wipe my tears. And if I cry there, no one will pat my back, no one will comfort me, no one will tell me that I look like a stupid creature when I cry. And even if you’re not there to personally say it, I know you didn’t want to see me hurting. That’s why at that time, I plucked up all of my courage and pretend that I’m okay. The girl I want to remember is that cheerful loving girl who can make my heart swoon every time, not that lifeless, body lying there peacefully as if she was just sleeping.
That day, it was our third anniversary, remember? But instead of celebrating, all I did was mourn for your absence. I thought we’ll grow old together. I thought we’ll have our honeymoon in Paris. I thought we’ll have an extravagant beach wedding. And you told me that the name of our first child will be Princess if it’s a girl, and Prince if it’s a boy. You taught me how to dream and how to use my imagination. You taught me not to use foul words. You taught me how to be soft and gentle. Too bad, I’m not going to see you wearing your white wedding dress. I’m not going to see you as you walk down the aisle with a smile on your face. I’m not going to utter my wedding vows anymore. Because now, you’re pretty up there, with the angels and with the stars, and I’m left here alone. Not a day pass by that I don’t want to see you. Looking at your photographs hurts. I want you to haunt me. I want you to visit me every night so I wouldn’t miss you. Even if I’m afraid of ghosts, if it’s you then I can take it.
I’m singing your favorite song every time, do you hear it? I’m always visiting that one place which is significant to the two of us. I’m always watching our favorite movie even if I already did watch it a thousand times. And I don’t care if I look like an idiot talking to your gravestone. Because it’s the only thing I can do. I know that you’re happy wherever you’re right now. That’s why I have to move on with my life, for you. I want you to see that I’m strong, that I’m not a crybaby anymore. I’ll live my life, for you. But for now, just let me cry and miss you. Because the wound is still fresh. Maybe in another life, there’s a chance for us to be together and be inseparable. Yeah, I’ll believe on that. So wait for me there, okay?
Minsan hindi naman talaga masakit magmahal ng isang tao.
Masakit kasi umaasa ka o naghahangad ka pa. Minsan pagiging kuntento na lang din ang susi kung bakit feeling o pakiramdam mo nasasaktan ka sa kaniya. Pero baka hindi mo napapansin ikaw lang din yung hindi marunong makuntento sa kaniya. Na baka mas naghahangad ka pa ng effort o surprises niya. Hindi obligado ng boyfriend mo na palaging mageffort sayo para lang maipakita niya sayong mahal na mahal ka niya. Minsan dapat mo lang iappreciate yung kung ano lang ang kaya ng taong mahal mo. Kung simple lang yung kaya niya ode matuwa ka na. Ang mahalaga mahal ka.
Nasasaktan ka kasi nagiging selfish ka. Yung tipong lagi mo na lang siya pinagbabawalan sa mga bagay na alam mo namang hindi niya maiiwasan gawin. Ultimo mga kasama niya, pinagseselosan mo. Na dadating sa puntong gusto mo siya palayuin para lang hindi ka magselos. Yung kapag nagkakasaya sila ng mga kabarkada niya, bibigyan mo siya ng oras kung hanggang saan lang siya. Yung kahit paglaro niya ng online games pinapakealamanan mo. Na lagi mong sinasabing nawawalan na siya ng oras sayo. Grow up! Hindi naman porket kayo eh itatali mo na siya sa mundong gusto mo na kayong dalawa lang. May sarili siyang buhay at may sarili siyang gusto, yung ang isipin mo. Huwag kang maging selfish sa mga bagay na gusto niya gawin.
Nasasaktan ka kasi hinahayaan mong kainin ng inggit yang utak mo. Hindi naman masakit magmahal ng iba eh. Ang masakit lang yung nagiging tingin mo sa sarili mo kapag kasama mo siya. Huwag na huwag mong iisipin na hindi ka bagay sa kaniya. O huwag mong iisipin na madaming babae na pwedeng pwede ipalit sayo. Aba! Babae ka. Kailangan alam mo kung paano pahalagahan yung sarili mo. Dahil alam mo kung anong meron ka na wala sa iba kaya ikaw ang pinili niya.
Minsan nasasaktan tayo dahil sa sarili nating problema at hindi dahil masakit magmahal ng iba. Kaya ka nagmamahal para sumaya, yung sakit na nararamdaman mo kung minsan ang bonus na lang yon. Kaya huwag mong hahayaan na mapalitan ng sakit lahat ng sayang nararamdaman mo.
Kung may salitang higit pa sa sobra, yun ang gagamitin ko dahil sobra na kitang namimiss. Sana nakakasama kita. Dahil gustong gusto na kita makasama.